A More Serious Post Stemming From Some Very Late Night Thinking

i love theatre.

i do.

obviously… i am majoring in it.

however, there are other things i love too, that, for the past few years, i have forgotten about…and sometimes i feel like my life has become about “getting a part” or training to be the best i can be…which isn’t bad…but theatre cannot be my entire life. it isn't healthy. and i feel like things are missing from my life. things i used to love.

i forgot that i really like kids. [i pretend that they annoy me…but i like them a lot.] :)

i like to go car camping.

i like wearing friendship bracelets and t-shirts and gym shorts.

i like going to camp.

i like cooking with friends.

i like sleepovers.

i like creative writing.

i like softball.

sometimes, i forget about these things.

and a part of me forgot that i can still be of value even if i am not the most talented person in the room. fighting to be being the best all the time is not what life is about. it is not where my worth comes from, and, quite frankly, it is tiring and i am tired of doing it. theatre is not everything. and it does not define me. I am not Lauren: actor, singer, dancer— in that order.

I am Lauren, a person with a lot of interests that I miss exploring.